July 9, 2012 VIDEO BELOW :)
Today I am here a mere frustrated shell of a person. Baby was unridable last week for a myriad of issues so today was my 4th ride. It ended with me literally frustrated and stressed to tears. I don't know if it's him, me, my current trainer, fighting against his saddle or what but I feel like the biggest loser in the world when I ride him. He takes an INCREDIBLE amount of leg to keep going. And even more leg to get into the canter and keep him in the canter. His canter seems rough to me and very hard to sit deep. No matter how much leg I put on him, my trainer yells at me to get more leg into him and to get my legs under him as well. I am just not used to having every inch of my legs literally clamped around the horse's barrel, especially a barrel that big.
I have decided to write the show manager and ask that I be changed to training A and B for this weekend since I apparently do not have enough leg power to canter this horse. In reality, I want to scratch completely but I don't want to be a quitter just because I'm feeling hopeless with my current mount.
I just keep telling myself that I will be a better rider for this experience. This horse can teach me things my horse can't
But right now all I can think of is I really dearly miss riding my Cinny and how much he absolutely SPOILS me under saddle by being such a sensitive and reactive horse. He does anything on just a mere whisper of a cue. He moves into another gate with just a tickle of my ankle.and then I merely have to balance with my core.. no clamping,no squeezing, no making my legs feel like jello after only 5 minutes. He is a pure joy to ride.
Here is some video of today's ride. Mind you, you can critique ME all you want, but this is NOT my horse so please be gentle on him. He is a 15 yo OTTB with the start of navicular changes so he is what he is. Towards the end at about the 1 minute mark you hear me kiss to him, I'm trying to get him to canter LOL.