I can hardly believe it... I feel content. For the first time in five years. Despite all the problems I know I still have to overcome, that still hang over me, I feel content. I will try to hold on to this feeling as long as I can because I know it will be gone in the blink of an eye. I believe there are many things we still don't understand about the human mind. It can shatter in an instant. And yet, it can also repair itself just as fast. For me, horses are my sanctuary. My lifeboat. Without them, I would not be typing this right now. I understand what it feels like to be afraid, unsure, and untrusting of someone. Even yourself. Through this bond I have found myself through them...
Sixteen in four days. Probably the most excited I've ever been for a birthday... Finally getting my license. Just have to take the actual driving part of the test, I already passed the written. For the record, everyone who said the written test was hard must not have many IQ points. I don't know about other states, but I was stressing over nothing.
Sixteen just sounds like freedom to me... Fifteen sounded more like prison. Okay, maybe not that bad. "Held back" might be a better term.
And my other birthday present... Luna
I can't wait to start working with her... Only three more weeks. Only three more weeks. I have to keep chanting that in my head to stay motivated. There has been a bit of drama going on at the barn lately and I know I can't let that interfere with my training. I just have to stay focused and confident. Confident mostly meaning sticking with my own training methods and not doing what someone else wants me to simply because they think they know more and almost always give me "pointers" that don't make any sense for the type of training I'm doing :roll: I can't wait until I have my own boarding/training business... I know there will be many things done differently. I have been to 4 or 5 different barns now and I have learned what *not* to do from all of them (business wise and dealing with clients mostly)...
Ugh, I have to work two shifts tomorrow... Well technically today. It's 12:27 AM. So I guess I should wrap up this entry. I am going to try and post daily, we'll see how it goes.
Thanks for reading