I'm so tired of everything. I almost can't stand to live in PA anymore, there's no work, everything keeps going up, taxes are getting ridiculous. There is just nothing here, resorts are buying up farmland, along with stone companies...ect. There is nothing here! My husband and i have been looking for jobs for the last 2 years, and have found nothing, unless it includes travel. UGH! I'm about ready to pack up everything, tie up my husband, load up the horses, and just disappear. Find some deep old holler down south of me, and live there. I'm going crazy! I just want to live my life with my husband the way we want to!!!!!
I'v been considering leavin PA for some years now, even before i got married. I'm disgusted with the way the state is run, and that agriculture is slowly fading away, big deal PA is the largest lumber producer in the continental US. My husband is in timber, but with it bein family owned, he might as well be a slave.....and we never hear the end of it if something goes wrong. The business isn't that great anyway, he's lucky to get paid anymore. I'm disgusted with our lives at this time. We're both workin our way into or mid-20's, we have next to nothing, and are going no where in our lives/careers. I just don't know how else to put it. Yes we got married young, so what, but i love my husband, have always had love for my husband, and i wanted to be able to go out and make those memories together. Whats the fun in making memories by yourself? I can't find any other solution other than moving to where there is need for workers. Which with a little research i found is everywhere south of PA.
I would like to have my own farm where i can grow, raise, and do what ever i want without being dictated, or having to worry about what the rest of the family has to say!
I'm so tired of doing just about everyone elses work for them. I just want to disappear.......be away from everything. Our little towns have expanded so much thanks to the gaswells. Outsiders have come from everywhere, and wreak havoc on everything, and have no respect for the locals. I hate it, i miss our quite little towns, with very few people in them, and everyone knowing everyone, and helping each other. Everything has gone so far down hill.
No one stays around here anymore, everyone moves away because they know there is nothing here, and those that stay are lucky to make a living. The culture of this area is nearly lost. No one is interested in how their ancestors survived settling in this area, and how they did things back then. So much of the old mountain culture is gone, along with the legacy of the old timers themselves. I'm learning what i can, and even that's difficult because some of the folks can't do it anymore. I'm heartbroken, the culture of this area is just about gone, and no one seems to care in the least.
I wish to move to a more culturally based area, where the old time traditions are used everyday, and passed down with care and diligence. It's part of mountain folk ways, and there aren't any in my area anymore.
I used to be proud to say i was from SWPA, with our unique way of talkin, but there is no culture behind it anymore. Your lucky to know the reasoning behind it. Its no wonder half or more of my family has moved out of the area, even a good portion of my husbands family has moved away too.
I just don't know what to do anymore......
The places of interest are TN, KY, & WVa. I want to stay in the Appalachian Mountains, where my family had originally settled, but it makes me wonder if they actually moved away, and just a few generations later they moved back. My inner "Mountain woman soul" is tellin me, has been for a while, to leave while we still can, find a new place, and make a better life. I'm disgusted with the way things are, and it's next to impossible to change it.
I'v cut down our bills by doing a few things here n there, and growing what we eat, and preserving it, but we still can't keep up.
My horses are well, i'm working on getting a custom saddle for Chloe, as of the moment i have a job house cleaning for a friend.....it's once a week, and not much. I'm almost ashamed of where my life has gone......
My lovely paint mare is becoming quite famous, she'll be shown on a cd album cover, and in a few of my cousins unique photo creations with me.
Shadow looks great after such a hard winter, he's leaned out a good bit, and is fit and healthy.
Storm is coming along nicely, he's gaited but i'm having an issue finding what gait he does.
Chloe is wonderful, and lookin forward to work, i just may begin usin her as transportation to local areas.
Food prices are supposed to rise 19%, and i can only imagine what gas prices will do, along with everything else out there.....it seems like theres no end in sight.
I guess that's all for now. "Horses were not a luxury for the Appalachian people but a necessity." r-SMOKY-MOUNTAIN-large570.jpg