Alright, so. My life has settled into a steady pattern, and i just added the best part.
for the last couple of months, i've been waking up, taking my meds (for CKD and anxiety) working one job, going to the next job, getting home around 9, make dinner, asleep by 11. i have therapy twice a week, havent self harmed in a long time, and got completely caught up with everything we needed to do at the barn (fixing and repairing-wise).
Alex has come a long way with his anger issues. firstly, he admitted to having them, and secondly, hes made a HUGE effort in recognizing and refocusing when hes "out of control" of his temper. as a result, we've been doing much better. We even went on our first date since last year!!
But, the part i'm excited about. Three days a week, i will be getting up at four am, and be going out to train my horse. I havent been able to do any kind of formal training on anne for almost 8 months, and getting back into my itty bitty english saddle is going to be amazing :)
We started this morning, and i found that she really reaches for the contact with this new bit. its a lighter copper D-ring snaffle, and w/t shes much softer at the poll, and very "on the bit". but at the canter, shes like a giraffe. i didnt even bother trying to collect her at the canter after a bit because she just kept grabbing the bit and pulling me over her withers. (i need to sit back more and work on my head/hip/heel alignment) so, its back to the round pen for more draw rein work at the canter sans-rider so she can get a little better balanced and not be so......stretchy. we did a lot of bending in frame, and circles, and figure eights, and serpentines, all in frame, at the trot. Did some ground poles and small cross rail work, as she's been very rushy to the fences and i want her to relax and maybe get a little bored before i move her up again. So, Miss Anne is going to be refinished, and may end up in a couple exhibition classes soon. :) would be very nice to get back to competing, even if it is just for fun.
Oh, and theres Toby. hes a 13yr old paint horse that was givent to this woman who supposedly does horses for the handicapped. however, the far she works for is not registered as a therapy center, and i dnt think she has any idea what shes doing. Toby is very smart, and very not broke. as in, somebody put a saddle on him, let him bronc it out, and called him done. Hes horrible on the lead, feels constantly like hes going to pop up on you. (i've only been on him once, after watching his new owner slide off the side of him. she wont ride anything but bareback - respect, but only if you can actually RIDE - and she doesnt know how to break him to the bit, so she uses a bit-less bridle with AWFUL pressure points. she's hired me to do his feet, which are ok overall considering. but, i do not believe this horse will ever be good for handicapped kids. unbroke, at 13, with unbelievable energy and not enough discipline....no thanks. i want him, you'll see why when i post pics of him soon. anyhoo, i think i may make a point of working with him and attempting to acquire him. he'd make a lovely barrel/gaming horse. and he kinda matches my Anne :)
heres miss Anne from this morning, still dark out :) and one from my drive home to get ready for work. lol.