OhMyGosh I feel terrible...
i took my dear pony out on her own today, which usually she's great with. We got out the field fine, out the graveyard fine, down the track was a little hairy and then along the track there was a turn off to a stubble field, now, usually i don't go in there, but today flicka wanted to go in, so i thought great, she wants to go exploring, so we headed in their, trotted and cantered (her canter was weiirrrrddd all strange and bouncy) and went along the edge of the field, top of the field, through to the next field, down the side of the field, back to the track. All of a sudden, she didn't want to go. i got her so far down the track (about 10m) and she spun round. i managed to stop her back at the stuble field track join. i turned her to the way we were going to go, asked her to go on, and she reared up and turned the the field, so i pulled her back the way she had turned whilst rearing, and asked again, and she did the same, at least five more times we did this. so anyway i got her 5m down the track, then she stopped and i couldn't get her to go along. so i got off and pulled her. we got about another 10m and she stopped, and wouldn't go. so i stood at her shoulder, clicked with my tongue, strongly asked her to go forward, and she didin't go. and then i just...lost it
i jabbed her in the mouth and screamed at her crying. i cant believe i did that
it got her going but now she...hates me...she was like a kid in a strop. i didn't want to ride her so i walked and after a while...i let go of her reins and she carried on beside me...so i stopped but she kept walking. she just walked.
i got on her near the end of the ride and rode home...we got back to the field and she seems really distant....
what have i done??? why did she do that??? how can i ask her to forgive me??? please help me
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