Getting over my cantering fear?
This is a really long post, so if you just wan't to skip the story of why I am scared of cantering, you can just read the blue.
I've been riding for a little over a year, but am kind of scared to canter. About 6 months after I started riding when I was able to canter around the arena, following patterns and what not confidently, I somehow fell off. I think it's just because I was being a bad rider. That's what originally got me scared of cantering, but I got over that pretty quickly then I fell off again about 2 months later when a different horse I was riding spooked and took off at a gallop, bucking me off. Since then I have never really been able to canter off the rail. I also fell off again just at a walk when the horse I am leasing spooked and did multiple large bucks about a month ago. Now, I have gotten to the point where I canter again, but I always feel like I am going to fast or like I am just going to fall over sideways. Given that I recently started riding English again after a month of western, I think that also has to do with me feeling off balanced, but I know this isn't normal for me as a rider. I can't even canter around the arena once without losing a stirrup or feeling like I'm going to fall sideways off the horse. I am always making sure to sit back and keep my heels down, yet I still pop out of the saddle, and sometimes end up losing a stirrup. Basically I am looking for any advice on how I can get to the point where I am able to canter confidently off the rail, and start jumping again. (I started getting into jumping a little before I fell off the second time.) Thank you for any help/ suggestions, my trainer has been a big help, but I need more advice/ help and I'm hoping you guys might know some things I could do. Thanks again!