Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: southern Arizona
I'm not a psychologist, nor do I play one. However, in trying to get Mia past her fears, about the only thing that has worked is breaking each task into smaller steps, until it is a step she can handle. So you might try mounting a horse who is being held and just sitting on it while it stands still. Maybe find someone with a patient pony, because anything you can do to distinguish in your mind between what you are trying to do and what went wrong years ago will help make the step 'smaller' to your mind. If there is a pony who can be mounted bareback, try that. I've watched my mare turn into 900 lbs of sweating, trembling, eye-rolling fear enough times to know that fear is very real and very powerful. If sitting in the saddle for 60 seconds is as much as you can stand, then sit in it for 55 seconds and dismount. We don't ask our horses to overcome their fears in one step, so why should we expect our fellow riders or ourselves to do so?
If someone near you offers English lessons, then maybe explain your situation and see if a lesson in English would trick your mind into allowing you to get on the horse.
Just some ideas, to go along with good intentions. In the end, you may need to pull yourself into the saddle with your body screaming...and sit there. And then sit a little longer, then a little longer, until you can add walking.
"People can teach us the rules, but only horses can teach us the art of riding."