I am on my last straw. I used to have confidence while riding and I could just have fun, but now I get on and I look confident but I'm absolutely terrified. A few days ago I got to ride a nice calm horse named Dolly, and I got on and I just cantered and had so much fun. I really enjoyed it and I just was able to ride with confidence and not worry so much. I was so happy, and it made me realize just how little I liked riding Misti.
I love her to death and we work well together on the ground, but in saddle we just are horrible together. I'm slowly getting more and more angry/stressed when I'm riding and it's affecting my riding, my horse, and everyone around me. I hate it. I really miss when I loved riding.
My dad gave me three options.
1.) Sell her and be done with horses.
2.) Sell her and get a different more experienced horse.
3.) Get a professional trainer to help.
I'm leaning towards 2 (or 1). I feel horrible that I'm almost ready to give up on her. My parents aren't horse people, so I'm coming here to get some advice. What do you think I should do? I'm absolutely torn. Share your opinions, stories, etc. I won't be offended, I just really need help. I've tried to work with her and gain her respect but it's just hard for me.