As a new horse owner, honestly I'm afraid sometimes that I'm not up to the task. I know there will be times that are heartbreaking and scary, and frustrating, and that great yawning unknown makes me worried that somehow it will all be too much for me. I don't believe it will. I don't think there is anything I can't handle so long as I have the right resources to help and I'm the one in control of gathering my resources.
I'm afraid of being an idiot. I don't really much care if people THINK I'm an idiot, so long as I don't do something when I should have known better. I know I'm going to have to manage my patience at all times and not jump the gun and ask for help when I need it.
I'm afraid of ticks. They squick me out.
I'm afraid that the powerful and brave person inside of me who is confident in what she is doing won't fully materialize and I'll always feel like I'm faking my way.
I'm afraid "horse people" won't give me the time of day because they don't like my type of horse or my style of riding.
I'm afraid of being judged all the time.
I'm afraid of becoming judgmental as I learn more and trust myself more, just to boost my ego and make me feel like I'm higher up on the proverbial ladder.
So, how will I fight these fears?
I will gain as much knowledge as I can from any and all sources I have available to me. I'll remember that nothing I intend to do is impossible. I'll remember consistency is key.
I don't know what I'm going to do about the ticks.
But most of all, I want to be open, honest, and kind to those around me and hope that that kindness is returned no matter what level I'm on.
So, what are your fears?