Hmmm. Well, I suppose saying I'm scared of...everything...is probably too broad, and would preclude me from being able to write my typical, horrifyingly, overly long post which I am so "known for" here on HF ("known for" being a euphemism for "despised" in this context!)
In fact, might as well begin here...I'm afraid that after one + years I'll be banned from HF FOR overwriting. Okay, back to the point.
I'm afraid of not having enough money/medical insurance and finding that my perfect & amazing horse (which I will someday be blessed enough to find and buy) will turn up with some lameness or disease which will cost thousands upon thousands of dollars to properly treat and I will be left homeless, with a semi lame and WORST FEAR OF ALL...horse in pain. This is prior to even owning the horse & THIS PARTICULAR fear keeps me up nights! (therapy much??)
Really, right now I'm terrified about having enough time and energy for my future horse even though I specifically CHANGED JOBS AND MEDICAL SPECIALTIES purely and simply in order TO finally buy my first horse at 39!
I'm worried that once I do choose said horse, he will have amazing training on him, & be much more advanced than I, which will take me all of 37 seconds to totally and completely undo with some manner of improper groundwork, riding, or basically just by walking up to him with the wrong "attitude". This, causing him to decide in the first 17 seconds that he, is the Alpha, not me (leaving me a mere 20 seconds to undo the complete and total remainder of his training)...
I am terrified of rocks in hooves, causing horrid stone bruises, thus pick out/look at hooves in an OCD- type fashion every time I ride.
I'm afraid of bumping my horse in the mouth inadvertently and never quite being forgiven for it...they have VERY LONG memories...(somewhere between forever and forever and a day, right? Haha).
I'm afraid that my saddle, which I no doubt will have fitted to the horse 9,000 times before I ever ride in it, will still somehow still not fit, and I will be responsible for causing immense pain, back and muscular issues for my horse from riding in said saddle. Due to this fear, I'll likely decide to only ride on a bareback pad at a walk and trot and never really progress in my skills, but will keep his back relatively safe!
Until, if course, he rolls weird one day in the turnout and winds up with horrible back/shoulder/musculature issues ANYWAY, no doubt!
I'm deathly afraid of trailering, and thank God as DH trailers for work regularly, I'll likely never have to do that myself . I cannot imagine having to trailer my OWN horse, yet, though will not be able to not own a trailer in case we'd have to go to a vet someplace far away. I don't intend to show, thus trailering to shows will st least not be an issue!
As far as riding, I have an obscenely MINIMAL AMOUNT of fear when in comes to me, or getting hurt myself, etc...it has happened, so perhaps it's that I no longer fear it, ,(not being unknown and all).
All in all, my fears, all kidding aside, revolve around my feeling that I'll never know enough to care properly for my horse...and that part of horsemanship is my strong suit! I read nonstop, would choose an amazing vet (& already have an incredible trainer, and a farrier whom I already know I'd use!), all three of whom I could and WOULD LOOK TO 24/7 when necessary, to help to guide my decisions regarding nutrition, care of hooves and teeth and all other aspects of the decision making which would, for the first time ever, be totally up to me.
Now, I just have to cope with my fear about choosing the wrong horse, & then the trigand my overall neurotic mentality, and we'll be "good to go"! Ah, hahaha! Poor future horse of mine! Could I POSSIBLY BE MORE NEUROTIC?
Best to all fellow neurotics and I wish us all luck with our future and current horse ownership endeavors!