Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Australia, Queensland
Been given a week to live.
I took my eldest cat BigBoy to the vets yeserday after noticing he was losing condition and weight. He's an elder cat, been with me since I was a little kid so I have been wondering how much longer he would have... But I took him to the vets fearing the worst and the moment the vet felt hi, all over, the moment she got to his stomach she said 'uhoh' out loud, I knew it wasnt good.
He either has a massive tumour or cist in his stomach which is slowly starving him and she gave us a few options. We had the option to get a cat scan, see what it is and whether it was operable but due to the fact he's old, he's already lost quite a bit of condition already and it would all in all be a serious operation, the chances of survival are slim so we've decided the best thing was to bring him home. So atm he's slightly uncomfortable, not sleeping too well but enough, he's eating better then yesterday, his eyes are still sunken in and he's having trouble lying down(it takes him awhile to get down). We are watching him like a hawk but the vets said he's probably only got this week left until it'll get too uncomfortable and we'll have to put him down. Now this is the worst time ever, the weekend is my birthday and last year my favourite little guineapig died the night before my birthday so atm im freaking out. BigBoys been in my life for so long the idea of now hearing his purs, not feeling his soft beautiful snowwhite fur under my fingers terrifies me and honestly im scared I don't know what to do. Im trying to make this week special but I don't know how to except for being with him, telling him I love him, patting him, rubbing his favuorite spots, brushing him, calling him by his nickname(bubba). He's my man who sits on my feet, keeps them warm at night, wakes me up in the middle of the night because im taking up too much of 'his' bed and 'his' pillow. When the time comes, I don't even know if i'm strong enough to go with them to put him asleep. I'm crying as I write this is the worst feeling in the world. How do you drive to the vets with your family to kill them? He's my family, he's my best friend. One week feels like nothing. Its like im counting the hours. Right now he's curled up beside my leg, trying to sleep, his fur that used to be neat splayed in every direction. How do you say goodbye to a family member. Imm sorry if noone wanted to hear this, I just really needed to say it to someone as none of my friends understand, they think he's just a replaceable cat. But he's more then anything to me :'(
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Last edited by Tayz; 05-22-2012 at 07:28 AM.