I'm sorry for your loss. My dog back at home is going on 15 and I left her with my parents when I moved across the country last year because I know she would not be able to survive a move. We both grew up in the same house our whole lives and to put her though the stress wasn't worth it. She would sleep with me every night; all 60 lbs of her =) The day I bought my plane ticket I sat on the floor with her all night and cried as I hugged her. I pray she makes it for me to be with her one more time. For 4 whole months after I left she kept going in my room checking to see if I was there. Grrr I'm tearing up writing this I better stop!!!
I still feel like I'm missing something, but the hole isn't nearly as big. What keeps me happy is knowing that we did it before he suffered too much. I've never had to put a pet down, so I didn't know what to expect. In time, I'll heel and may even bring another dog into my heart, but not for quite sometime.
I've been thinking about getting some kind of memorial stone. I think he would like that.