Go to a different doctor! If that doesn't work, go to a different one again. (not to sound harsh) let go of your pride, you are damaging yourself more than helping. Supervised prescription drug use is not going to harm you - it is going to help you. You can not blacklist all drugs because you clearly need help.
My Mom had mental health issues caused by something I won't share over the forum. It took several different doctors and many different combinations of medicines to get her stable - she managed to lead a relatively normal life for the majority of the time. It didn't happen over night, there was trial and error to find the combinations/therapists that worked for her.
Stop for a minute, open your mind, learn. You may not agree with what I say, I may not agree with what you say but we will both learn something new.