OK I'm sorry, I just can't keep quiet. I'm not trying to stir things up here, but I just can't keep quiet. First off, I have no doubt that the 707 at the end of your name is an area code. I'm also from California, and 707 is my area code. I know how far it stretches out. Its the Bay Area of San Francisco. There is no way that you'd have a (707) area code where you live, as, get this, it is about 2-3 (fits the time) hours from me. Also, if you read the rest of your posts, they are always strange, controversial, things that suggest mass lies. Like oh, my parents freak out when I ride. Why do they do that? Just kidding they don't freak out anymore because I ride bulls. Um...the flow of that conversation isn't logical. On top of it, you have these "conditions" that don't exist nor make sense. You also imply, tho it is never directly said, that you live alone in these posts while in the other you say you live with your parents. IF you live with your parents, why do you need "aggressive dogs"? Sounds to me like you just want alot of attention and try to post things that will make people talk. Lies built on lies. It is the internet, we don't know you, so you can be anyone you want. It's clear to me that you are in high school, young, and rather unhappy. I don't know if you really have horses or get to ride or just dream that you do. I hope that you do. If you do, go to them. Horses work miracles at making people happy and calmer and enjoy life. If not, hopefully some day you can ride consistently. It releases stress. I think you may have some conditions that you either choose not to diagnose, or just can't control. I think you want a better life for yourself, and at school you feel no one likes you. You post on here in order to get attention and make people both pity you, and hopefully respect you (aka I ride bulls and gallop around no reins). You escape into a world that you do not live in order to make this life just that much more bareable. I think some of what you say is true: You probably do have a grandpa on a farm, you may have actually punched people, you do love horses and you may have been (are?) suicidal, to name a few.
And I do pity you. I really, really do. In order to get people to respect you you have to first respect yourself. As teens, the hardest thing is growing into who you want to be. Life is so different when you are a teen from when you are an adult. At a guess I'd say you are 15. You are still learning and growing. You'd get much more respect and honor from people on here, strangers you will never meet in person, if you are honest and tell them that you are unhappy with your life, but that you, like them, have this passion for horses. You'd be really surprised how much people can relate to you if you just try talking to them and asking for help! True, there are some really rude people on here, and not everyone is friendly. But I'd say 85% of the replies you'd get would be in your favor and people just want to help you. So stop with the lies. Start fresh. Learn to love yourself for who you are becomming and who you want to grow to be. It can't happen overnight, but it CAN happen. You've got you believe it, first. We are here as fellow horse lovers, banning together to discuss some of the most important aspects in our lives. We all have problems. And we are all people, just like you. So be honest with us. No more lies. No more crazy, wild stories. No more strange posts about how you want dogs to attack people. NO MORE EXAGGERATIONS. Just. Truth!
Best of luck with everything.
~He knows when you're happy
~He knows when you're comfortable
~And he always knows when you have carrots.