I am so sorry. My once in a lifetime cat is currently dieing of kidney failure at the young age of 10- it is not supposed to happen til much later and she was diagnosed at 8. We have had her in a study for a med that is legal in the UK but not in the US. She is still sweet and happy but I dread the day we have to euthanize... it will be at home as I have budgeted for a house call from my large animal vet- I don't want her last moments to be in a kennel, locked, scared.
I am sooooo sorry for your loss. I would lower my flags if I had them.
"Equine-facilitated therapy employs a form of biofeedback for practicing self-awareness, emotional management, and relationship skills that human role-playing exercises and discussion groups cannot begin to access." Linda Kohanov (The Tao of Equus)