A few pre pregnancy questions...

So I have a dilemma.

I am on Celexa, which is an anti-depressant. I have been on it for almost a year now after cutting and planning suicide. I have a really hard time coping with stress and dealing with life I guess.

Since being on the medication, I have been great. It just evens me out and keeps my mind from going to bad places. I haven't had a single suicidal thought since going on the medication, despite having been thinking about nothing else before hand.

Now my worry is that I know you can't, or aren't supposed to, take medication during pregnancy. I am getting married in less than 5 months and after that we plan on trying for a baby. Now whether that will happen right away, or down the road, I am not 100% sure of. But I feel like I should talk to my doctor about trying to wean off the of the anti-depressants just in case I do conceive after I am married.

My fear is that if I come off of them, that I will revert back to how I was before being put on them :(

Anyone have any experiences with this? How did you deal with your depression without medication? This is probably my biggest hurdle.

I think the best thing you can do is talk to your doctor. I don't know about that medication but there may be possible alternatives which may be more suitable.

My first child I avoided all medication, down to panadol/tylenol like the plague. I suffer through colds and flus and took nothing. It was only when I was 9 month gone that they told me I COULD take these in moderation. I was still hesitant but with my next I did take some when I was very sick with a cold.

As for dealing with depression, I was diagnosed when I was 13. I can't tell you how to deal with it, as although I was cutting, bar post natal depression with my daughter, I've managed without anti depressants. The thing is, some things work for some that doesn't work for others.

Make sure that your OB & psych stay in contact!! Those are the only 2 that can determine what's best medically (and you of course). You need to seriously weight the pros and cons of staying on them vs. going off. EACH person is different, as with each pregnancy.

My first one, I basically had no choice to stop taking my meds. I was so sick with morning sickness, I was never able to keep them down. Personally, I did OK, not great, but I managed. The second kid, I was on them the whole time.

As for what it's like off of them, I'm not going to go into it on her (you can PM me if you'd like), but I'm not going to put it out in the open.

What it all comes down to is, are you willing to except the consecenses of your decisions. If you stop taking them are you prepared to fight tooth & nail not to have a crash while you're preggers? If you decide to keep taking them, are you prepared to deal with any birth defects they may cause (there are quite a few out now that have "minimal" side affects to a baby)?

Only you can make that desicion (((hugs))))