The only thing that has changed with my eating habits is that my boyfriend makes breakfast most morning (usually bacon, eggs and potatoes, but I don't eat a lot) and I generally cook dinner, but it's always healthy (or at least not junk). I don't eat a lot of junk food, despite the fact that my boyfriend runs a vending machine business and always has candy. I don't eat a lot of food at meals, generally one small to medium serving of whatever we're having. I don't drink soda and usually drink water. My one guilty pleasure is a glass of Minute Maid fruit punch when we have popcorn at night. My boyfriend and I do go out to eat, but we try to avoid fast food as much as possible.
I try to walk my dog every evening that I don't get off late. I walk a lot at work, walking the lot (17 total acres) as often as possible instead of riding on the golf carts. Because of my ridiculous work schedule, I haven't been to the barn in forever. I know I won't fit in my Aussie saddle. I'm not sure about my Stubben.
I am so frustrated and discouraged right now. It seems like the better I try to eat, the more weight I gain. I can't even look in the mirror right now. We went to the USMC Birthday Ball and I couldn't wear my 2" heels for more than 15 minutes. I don't even want to try riding Aires because I'm too heavy. Hell, I doubt I could even mount, even with a mounting block. Leaning down to put on my shoes and socks is a huge chore.
I just don't know what to do. I tried Lipozene for a month, but you're supposed to take it a half an hour before you eat and half the time I don't know when we're eating until 10 minutes before (unless I'm cooking dinner, of course).
I'm not being all "woe is me." I'm just...lost...and needed to get this off my chest.
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