So...this is a vent and I really
hope I don't annoy anyone.
This time last year I was 115 pounds. Granted, I had an eating disorder, and did for 6 years, but still.
I just weighed myself(I try to stay away from scales because it's sort of triggering)
168.....I'm 5'4. Not tall by any means.
I don't understand how I can gain that much weight in only a year...I guess I do have a problem with over eating, mainly when I get bored or upset with myself- but I just find it extremely disheartening. I know I'm not healthy at this weight and it upsets me to no end how much I weigh, when looking around, most people in my discipline are 120-130, maybe 140 at most
. I feel so out of place at the barn, dare I say it, judged
while I ride.
The only saving grace I have is my boyfriend, who supports me and loves me no matter what weight I am, he actually prefers me at a higher weight, as opposed to when I was thin.
Can someone give me some sort of guidance towards a diet I can follow? I've researched a few, but I don't want to have to buy any books or pay for someones advice etc etc.
I don't exercise enough, I'm sure. Saturday and Sunday is when I get the most, I work at a barn mucking, laying shavings, feeding, turning out etc from 6-9 AM then again from 4-5:30 both days. Then I leave and do it again where I board for my two geldings(that is every day and night though, I'm self care)
I have no problem what-so-ever staying away from sweets, I rarely eat things of that nature. My problem is actual food, especially carbs.
Pleaasee give me some ideas for diets and exercise routines...
What has worked for you?