So...this is a vent and I really hope I don't annoy anyone.
This time last year I was 115 pounds. Granted, I had an eating disorder, and did for 6 years, but still.
I just weighed myself(I try to stay away from scales because it's sort of triggering)
168.....I'm 5'4. Not tall by any means.
:shock:
I don't understand how I can gain that much weight in only a year...I guess I do have a problem with over eating, mainly when I get bored or upset with myself- but I just find it extremely disheartening. I know I'm not healthy at this weight and it upsets me to no end how much I weigh, when looking around, most people in my discipline are 120-130, maybe 140 at most. I feel so out of place at the barn, dare I say it, judged while I ride.
The only saving grace I have is my boyfriend, who supports me and loves me no matter what weight I am, he actually prefers me at a higher weight, as opposed to when I was thin.
Can someone give me some sort of guidance towards a diet I can follow? I've researched a few, but I don't want to have to buy any books or pay for someones advice etc etc.
I don't exercise enough, I'm sure. Saturday and Sunday is when I get the most, I work at a barn mucking, laying shavings, feeding, turning out etc from 6-9 AM then again from 4-5:30 both days. Then I leave and do it again where I board for my two geldings(that is every day and night though, I'm self care)
I have no problem what-so-ever staying away from sweets, I rarely eat things of that nature. My problem is actual food, especially carbs.
Pleaasee give me some ideas for diets and exercise routines...
What has worked for you?
This time last year I was 115 pounds. Granted, I had an eating disorder, and did for 6 years, but still.
I just weighed myself(I try to stay away from scales because it's sort of triggering)
168.....I'm 5'4. Not tall by any means.
:shock:
I don't understand how I can gain that much weight in only a year...I guess I do have a problem with over eating, mainly when I get bored or upset with myself- but I just find it extremely disheartening. I know I'm not healthy at this weight and it upsets me to no end how much I weigh, when looking around, most people in my discipline are 120-130, maybe 140 at most. I feel so out of place at the barn, dare I say it, judged while I ride.
The only saving grace I have is my boyfriend, who supports me and loves me no matter what weight I am, he actually prefers me at a higher weight, as opposed to when I was thin.
Can someone give me some sort of guidance towards a diet I can follow? I've researched a few, but I don't want to have to buy any books or pay for someones advice etc etc.
I don't exercise enough, I'm sure. Saturday and Sunday is when I get the most, I work at a barn mucking, laying shavings, feeding, turning out etc from 6-9 AM then again from 4-5:30 both days. Then I leave and do it again where I board for my two geldings(that is every day and night though, I'm self care)
I have no problem what-so-ever staying away from sweets, I rarely eat things of that nature. My problem is actual food, especially carbs.
Pleaasee give me some ideas for diets and exercise routines...
What has worked for you?