Then we moved onto the xrays of my neck she put my xrays up the one fo a normal healthy neck....my neck has reverted backwards...it's literally the opposite of the healthy one (weird cause I don't have that much neck pain at all) she showed my where a couple of the vertebrae where close to rubbing and where one of my docs could become more damaged. She reassured me they will work on it, it won't heal over night it won't heal in a month but in a while with work and home exercises and such it will start to go back to where it needs to. I kitterally have ti train my neck to flip back to being normal again....so we now really have avoid idea to my leg and arm numbness ofmyphotograohy right side....and it's getting worse as of lt night ( my right arm goes painfully tingly almost numb and heavy if I sleep on my right side) so there is a nerve or muscle that's getting punched or circulation isn't good from being pinched and it's causing this.
I'm so disappointed I just got back into riding and feeling good about it and signed up for a fun show (extremely low key)
I don't want to tell the people I ride with or my trainer who I'm moving Ollie to on the 3rd cause I am so happy to be back int the saddle, so excited to get Oliver out to his first show bit the back of my head I feel like I'm stupid to ride with now knowing about what's wrong with my neck, it's not like it's pulled muscle it's a nerve issue that's causing severe numbness and I don't know if that's something I can really hide....
I am stuck, frustrated and don't know what to do.
Guess I just need another online hug. Here I was really thinking I was moving on from this accident and feeling better and things where looking up for Oliver and I.