Background: I was a typical horse crazy kid who was lucky to have parents that supported my addiction. I rode and showed jumpers on the national circuit and loved every minute. When I got married, for reasons I won't go into, riding and horses came to a halt. The ache sowly went away and I found new interests and resigned myself to never having a horse again.
Fast forward 40 years - My daughter unexpectedly purchased a small horse farm As soon as I walked into the barn, I felt like I was home. I HAD to ahve a horse. After several months of talking (and sometimes throwing temper tantrums) I finally got my horse; a beautiful 2 year old palomino quarter horse. She is beautifully ground trained and is willing, kind, and calm. I couldn't wait to turn her into my perfect horse (trail riding only now, LOL)
I had one month of heaven, then I startd to lose sensations in my hands, then feet. I won't bore you with the details, but after a million tests (there goes my arena) I was diagnose with chronc Guiillan Barre. I am now using a walker and don't have the strength or stability to ride a horse.
My husband says we can still keep her, but he will ride her only about 1 -2 days a week, and although he has good hands and a good seat, he doesn't have formal triaing. He won't hurt her, but she won't be taught anything about flexing, collection, etc. She is out in pasture all day with other horses, and in a barn at night. My daughter grooms her and fusses with her, but I kep thinking it's noty fair to Nibbles.
My prognosis is unknown. I could get better over a few months or a few year and be able to ride, buty will probably always have relapses. I know I shouold probably let someone have her who can let jer liuveup to her potential, but I just CAN'T let her go. Am I wrong? She and the possiblity of riding her again is about the only thing keeping me trying to get up in the morning and get better, but I don't want to be unfair to her, either/ Thanks for any input.