Thank you everyone, once again. It's nice to know I have friends here who will give me moral support. I have to remember that all of us have problems we have to overcome.
Part of the problem is my daughter's property is very hilly, and we don't have an arena. The only place to ride is the trail or the steet. Thank goodness Nibbles is good on either, but I don't like riding on the street, and wouldn't feel comfortable driving a cart there, as the roads are narrow and winding.
Franknbeans, you may be right about giving her up, but at this point I just CAN'T give her up. Sometimes she's the only reason I get out of bed, even if it is just to watch her.
Hopefully I'll be able to figure the saddling and grooming thing out. I asked my husband, and he didn't like the idea of hiring someone - he said he would do it. I guess I'll just have to resign myself to the complaints about my heavy saddle and when I don't have anyone to do it, I'll ride bareback, as even my english saddle is too heavy at this time.
Sue - thank you very much. She is pretty. My vet, who shows in AQHA and palomino shows, said she should be shown, and would do very well. SHe even expressed interest in showing her, but I just don't want to let her leave. I truly believe she is my angel as someone or something certainly led me to her and made me buy her. (I was looking for an older, 'bombproof" gelding, and I hated palominos. I kept seeing her ad, and I finally just went for the heck of it. No vet check,didn't ride her or even really touch her. She was delivered to my daughters an hour and a half after I first saw her, and she has been PERFECT - it's like someone KNEW I would need her.)
Zexious _ My husband named her. he had another mare by that name when he was little, and as soon as he saw this horse, he said "that's Nibbles!" It fits her, as she is constantly gently lipping my hair and hands. I probably shouldn't let her do it, but it never escalates, and she quits when I tell her to.
4 horses - I am sorry you are going through this, too . Nerve problems are no fun. My dioctor is certain it was from all the stress I was under for so long, and I agree. AT times I felt like I was just going to explode and I think my body just said "enough!" Did they test you for CIDP and POEM? I hope you feel better soon and thanks for the support.
THANK ALL OF YOU for the support and suggestions, they are greatly appreciated and I know that by using some of the suggestions, I will somehow make this work. Thanks for letting me rant!