I had my first bad experience on a horse three weeks ago, and I still can't get over it. We were just trotting, but I wasn't ready for her and she wasn't ready for me. She took advantage and took off. I'd never done anything more than a trot on a horse, and so when she broke into a gallop I freaked out. I fell off and did not get harmed, but it left many mental scars.
I stopped riding Lily and decided to take the safest routes and ride one of my instructor's horses, Kelly Jane. Just a week after the incident, my teacher told me to trot. No biggie, trotting was always easy for me. We were just going at a slow, leisurely trotting pace, but in my mind she was taking off. She was running away with me and I couldn't jump off. With all this playing in my mind, I finally decided I wasn't ready to trot yet, and pulled her to a stop.
This week we were trotting again. My instructor assumed I was over it, and asked us to practice speed control. We walked. Turned circles. ...Trotted. The minute Kelly started trotting, it happened again. This little image in my head played over and over...an image of me falling off. Or worse, not being able to fall off. I made her stop. I rested for a moment. I nudged her back into a trot. This vision was completely controlling me. I couldn't even trot, for gosh sake.
I needed to get over it, but I couldn't. I trust Kelly. She's trusts me. But honestly, I can't get over this! I need to move on and forget about that experience, but it always comes back to me when we start to trot. I need some advice besides "she's not going to hurt you"...any help? (Don't bother to comment if you aren't going to help, please!)