The problem is that need to and will are two different things.
Seven years and two weeks ago I took a bronc ride on a rescue mare I was breaking to saddle. Needless to say, I am not a good bronc rider. Only two out of 30+ horses I have started under saddle have ever bucked. I am told I only lasted about four seconds.
I landed on my head (no helmet) hard enough to crush one of my throasic vertebra and break eight ribs. After six months in a full torso brace I was back on MY horse. I have not ridden any other horse since then as one fall and I am dead - the T6 vertibra is the one that controls the diaphram. It goes entirely and I suffocate before the ambulance can get there. My horse takes very careful care of me - but beats up anyone else who tries to ride him.
To make a long story short, I have gone from in pain, but mostly functional on OTC painkillers, to unable to do anything. I currently take 8 vicaden a day, plus what have been described as a horse dose of muscle relaxant and can only be out of bed for a few hours a day. Next Dr apt they are taking me off the vicaden and putting me back on oxycotten.
I am in the current system run around to have reconstructive surgery done, but that could be months away at this point.
I have only had the energy to go out to the stable once a week for about the last three months. In the last two months I have only ridden three times, for less than 20 minutes. I have to have my daughter saddle and unsaddle my horse as well as first take him out for an hour gallop so I can just walk. He is 1/2 Arab, 1/2 Saddlebred and probably the hottest horse at the stable.
I am hoping that in the next couple of weeks I can get my family help me to fix up my cart. I think I could still ride in a cart, but riding kills me. I honestly have to take a full dose of pain killers before and after my 20 minute ride.
How do you stop riding for a while? I can't even fathom not riding. In 40+ years I have only gone two years without owning a horse and I would go out and rent one every couple months.
My husband thinks that going out and hugging my horse and loving on him, ,maybe grooming if I feel well enough shoudl be enough... but how do I do that? Leaving the stable without riding usually leaves me depressed as heck - worse then not going at all.