So I need advice, so much actually. And this is also a bit of a rant
So for years I've been healthy, never had ANY issues with my health.
October of 2010 I was in a terrible car accident. I was rounding a corner going about 40mph, there was a semi truck turned over on the next corner and the car in front of me had stopped in the middle of the road right after the corner! I slammed on the brakes and managed to get stopped and slightly tapped her bumper, only enough to pop her trunk open. We were fine, it woke my daughter up so I turned around to console her (she started crying) as soon as I turned and put my right arm on her a FULL SIZED Ford Pickup came around the corner and hit us going over 40 mph without touching the brakes! He hit us so hard that he shoved the front of my small suv into the BACK SEAT of the car in front of me! I was stunned and had so much adrineline running through my body I couldn't feel any pain and was 100% in shock. After trying to console the children, dealing with the police, and other drivers I collapsed. My right foot was turning purple and I couldn't hold my head up or use my right arm. Apparently I was standing on the brake with my right foot, and twisted around so I took all the impact on it. I also have messed up the nerves in my neck causing chronic numbness and pain in my right shoulder, neck, arm, and face. When I was in the ambulance I kept trying to look at the EMT and talk to him (family friend) and I couldn't hold my head up, kept laughing, whats wrong with me!!!! I was pretty messed up.
So on to therapy... I've been to numerous doctors, the best in the area. Only to get "It'll feel better when it quits hurting." and "So sorry, I've seen too many lives ruined by this type of injury, sucks to be you.", and "There is nothing more to do for you, start riding again, quit your job, and have a nice life." I am devastated. To make matters worse I have been having panic attacks due to my numbness, makes me feel like I'm having a stroke. Work is suffering, I can hardly pick up a pencil, I have constant pain, riding is torture, and I've gained 25 lbs. to top it all off. The insurance company, Allstate, is fighting me every step of the way. My insurance is refusing to help me due to the accident and the fact that I'm having to take anxiety meds, they don't cover that even though I'm also getting pain meds and having other work done. The two chiropractors that I've been to (first one then the other) have thrown the towel in now that I've been getting cortisone injections in my neck, and the shots only work for about a month and I can only get them once every three months!!!!!
Riding. I still have pain in my right foot, so the pro is I've really gotten better not allowing too much weight to rest in my ankle/feet. I have to be SUPER careful dismounting, of course it's my right leg!!! I collapsed the other day when I landed too hard on it. My arm is worthless. I struggle tacking my gelding up, he is only 5 and being such a gentleman with me! Even being the young, green boy he is. When I get done from riding I'm silly with pain and end up just laying on the couch afterwards. My rides have been getting further and further apart, it's really starting to get to me. Especially since Rick needs to keep up his training, he's come such a long way! He's on rest now for a couple months, just doing groundwork with him, but even that hurts. How do you cope with pain while riding?
Have any of you gone through this? What have you done to get over nerve damage/whiplash? Ankle problems? Wreck advice, fighting to get the care and compensation? I'm really struggling and my health is going down, my can do attitude has become a leave me the hell alone attitude. Horses have always lifted my spirits, and now I'm having a hard time just getting out there and suffering through the pain...
I'm always telling people to suck it up, get over it, work through it. So I'm trying to do the same! My hub is shocked to see me this way, he's been a doll. But it's getting old. And I'm too young 31, to be feeling this way. My mom hardly talks to me anymore, I don't talk to her about this, but I think I get on her nerves cause I can get a little grouchy when I'm hurting. It sucks.
This isn't a whine thread. I never talk about this with ANYONE. So I wanted to get it out and hear how you have dealt with similar chronic pain and injuries. Thanks so much for even reading!!!