In November I took on a horse that I obviously was not ready for. At this time I had only been riding for a month, and a friend of mine really wanted me to ride his five year old mare, Lily. I rode her, but she took off on me and I had my first fall of a horse. I broke my thumb and got the wind knocked out of me, but other then that, I was fine...
A week later, I was back at the lessons. I couldn't even trot I was so terrified. So, my instructor gave me a break and let it slide.
NEXT WEEK. Again, I'm too scared. We do a bit of trotting, but that's really all I can handle.
This goes on for a month. I finally get enough confidence back to trot around the arena doing laps for five minutes or so, and I can even feel happy and content while doing so.
Well, now my instructor is introducing cantering. He specifically told us that he wasn't trying to rush us and we should take our time, but I feel like I'd be holding everyone back if I don't canter. It absolutely terrifies me the way your horse looks like he's bucking and how fast he's going. It looks fun, I suppose, but I'm so worried that it will be too fast, I'll panic and fall off again.
So, my question is;
How do I get over my fear of speed?