Just came across one of the hardest things for an aspie and an aspies' dislike for change in routine. I have to move barns! Argh! I really have to, the situation in the current one is not beneficial for me or my horse in long-term, but I'm anxious, frustrated and nervous to no end, and fighting back obsessive thoughts like "you should stay, it could be worse in the other place" or "maybe everything will get better, you just wait and see!". So I've made a list with pros and cons of both places and looking all the time at the pros of the other barn I'm most likely moving to, which hugely overthrow the count of pros of my current barn. Making charts, lists and writing argumented essays and thesis greatly help in such times when a hard decision has to be taken, but those unnecessary fears and dislikes can step in the way.
I also really want to start competing this summer, but I'm afraid to step into the jumping ring and be a mess, so I've talked a friend into competing along with me in the same class, so that there is someone to encourage me and not to let me run away from what I want to do.
I have come a long way, to surrender my shadow to the shadow of my horse.