Wild Spot, that's fine, knowing yourself and what you are comfortable with and not. At this stage in your life , this is how you feel. When I was younger, I felt the same way, even though I was raised around hunting, target shooting and skeet shooting (which I was good at).
Now at this stage in my life along with my life experiences, I have no qualms about carrying a gun when riding in remote areas alone. Like I said earlier, if I am parted from my horse, I would prefer to have some protection from both 2 and 4 legged predators.
Freedom of choice is something we have here in the states, and we are fierce about it, including the right to bear arms. If a fellow citizen does not desire to, that is absolutely fine, it's about choice.
Be the kind of woman that when your feet hit the floor each morning the devil says, "Oh crap, she's up!".