I'm kind of like you Jubliee. I enjoy the arena a lot, and I like just doing what I normally do. I know what affect it has on my horses, but I just don't want to go for a ride through a forest or on the beach or even on the roads... I used to love road riding, but not now.
I guess an element for me is that I'm too comfortable where I am... and don't wanna get out of it. I have mates who say they're just going to load my horse onto a float, drag me along to the beach and then stick me up there once I've seen how my horse reacts. I just don't have enthusiasm for that.
Do what you wanna do. I'm trying to get back into road riding, to help my horses out... well when I can ride again anyways. I don't want them to get sour, but it will be forcing myself to do it. And I'm worried that forcing myself will make my nerves worse.
I'm the type of person that if I don't want to do it, I have plenty of friends who are horseless who would love to. As bad as that seems, at least my horse is getting out and about and not being held back because Mummy doesn't want to gallop down a beach or whatever lol.
People don't understand me either. They can't believe I don't have any interest or curiosity on trying new things out. They leave it down to me being scared, and I guess to a point I am, simply cos I've never done it before. But at the end of the day, if I don't want to, then no one can make me do it.
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