GRRR!!!!! So I'm not sure what to think of my ride yesterday. I lunged Cheyenne first and she did AWESOME!!! She didn't even buck at all!! She reared at me once, but I taught her who's boss in a gentil way and then she did AWESOME!!! Then I took out my STUPID STUPID STUPID english saddle and my STUPID STUPID STUPID english bridle and tacked her up. I walk her around and checked the girth and then I mount and noticed that the saddle had slipped back. It had happened 3 times now!!! Whever I use my stupid saddle it ALWAYS has to go back!! So I get SO angry I wanna hit something (no I didn't hit the horse I smacked my crop on the ground instead and Cheyenne didn't mind) and then I completely untacked her and did the process all over again. It didn't slip back as much that time. Then Cheyenne didn't stinken want to collect or arch her neck for me and so I stopped her and arched asked her for her head from a stop and then a walk and then tried for a trot and I barely got it. Then after that I got that I kicked her into a canter and she ended up going into a gallop and I couldn't stinken get the horse into a nice, slow canter!! GRRRRRRRR!!!!! I got her to collect her gallop which didn't really do me much good, but I got SO angry with her I wanted to hit something again and I was about to smack her as hard as I possibly could with that darn crop, so instead I threw it on the ground and then made her give me her head again. GRR!!! I'm so out of practice!! This is horrible!! I have a show on the 19th and the STUPID weather keeps raining!!!!! ARRRRGG!!! We have 3 nice days and my mom won't let me go today which is the last good day, one day stinks and the other day I went western so it was great. But I mean, still! Why can't it just be summer???