I had a horse that was great for me and then decided to try something new...I guess I jumped into it a bit fast by replacing my horse with a horse more along those lines. This new horse was a great guy, but just not the right kind of horse for me at all, so I put a good year into him (basically a year of almost no riding, because we just didn't get along undersaddle at all) then decided to sell him. I found a great buyer, but it was around another 4 months or so before she could buy him, so we waited around...but by the time he was sold my parents decided that they would not be paying for my next horse.
Now I've been trying to find a job, but that's an extremely hard thing to do right now, especially in a small town, especially when you are just not capable of being very outgoing at all, especially while struggling with sometimes crippling depression.
Horses are the best therapy I could possibly get, so I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place and I have no clue what I'm doing anymore.
Blah, I'm sorry for rambling about this
I'm just all over the place at the moment.
But I'm really sorry about your TB =( that sounds like it would be awful...I don't know what happened but as humans we all make mistakes, but I know that could only be so much consolation. *hugs*