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post #91 of 122 Old 03-11-2018, 08:12 PM Thread Starter
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Glad to see you found a new doctor and therapist! It might not seem like it, but you're making great progress. That "hurry up and wait" stage feels like it takes forever, doesn't it?

Asking you to wait 5-6 months to feel better is absolutely ludicrous in my book. It shouldn't take more than a few weeks to start noticing a difference in how you feel when on a proper medication regimen. It has never taken me more than 30 days to start feeling a difference, but YMMV of course.

I was on a medication called Celexa for a while, unfortunately it did not mesh well with my ADHD medication and turned me into a complete space cadet. I have a very good psychiatrist though, and she is very open to changing and managing medications if one is truly not working. The one I am on now, Cymbalta, has a few side effects that I don't care for - namely, being very sensitive to heat and sweating a lot - but that's all stuff I can live with and manage. Sometimes there are trade-offs (like living with being sweaty more often to be able to function well), but you don't have to settle for a medication that flat-out makes you feel like crud.

If you find yourself having a hard time while waiting for a therapist, there are a lot of great online therapists/apps now that allow you to chat with a therapist from your phone. They're all licensed therapists/counselors, and often you can get 4-5 sessions with an online therapist for the cost of one in-person session- plus it helps if you are having a hard time with energy levels. It's no replacement for true in-person talk therapy, but it certainly makes help much more accessible while you are waiting for your doctor.

One other thing I might suggest is trying a low-carbohydrate diet such as Keto, making sure to get lots of Medium Chain Triglycerides (MCT) in your diet. That can be as simple as putting a tablespoon or two of coconut oil in a cup of coffee in the morning. I find that I feel MUCH better when I am avoiding high amounts of carbohydrates and eating plenty of healthy fats.

YMMV, of course, but the way of eating was developed for children with neurological/seizure disorders, so there is a large body of evidence suggesting benign dietary ketosis has positive effects on brain function and mood.
Thanks for the info on the online therapist I didn't know about that. I don't eat alot of carbohydrates have always kept that very low in diet. Same with sugars keep it at a minimum.

I think I'll be ok with no therapist for now. Just my state of being tired foggy minded & lightheadedness. I manage to get through the day. Got kids ,hubby and the critters so gotta keep going.

Can't wait till appointments in April hopefully it goes good. I seriously need my life back.
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post #92 of 122 Old 03-13-2018, 09:50 AM Thread Starter
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Just a quick update. I started taking a 1/4 of a pill to see if foggy, lightheaded and tiredness would ease up a bit. Seems to be somewhat better not great but a bit more doable. Might also be i'm pushing through it and getting up even though i really really don't want to. Kids keep me going they need want things it seems only mom can do.
My 13 year old has been so helpful she gets up 30 minutes early. Just so she can go feed horses before school. I never asked her to do that she just started doing morning feeding. Other 3 kids have been keeping their rooms clean and dirty laundry put in hamper,that is an accomplishment.! I'm so proud of them their just doing their chores and not having to be reminded or asked.
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post #93 of 122 Old 03-13-2018, 09:49 PM
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Great kids! Count your blessings.....

Hope....what can I say.....it's powerful......

You'll soon find some joy......I do believe.
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post #94 of 122 Old 03-24-2018, 09:33 AM
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Hey Rambo....How's things?

Better I hope!
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post #95 of 122 Old 03-24-2018, 09:38 AM
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Yes, much better I hope. Update please.
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post #96 of 122 Old 03-24-2018, 01:21 PM Thread Starter
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Here's an update for those wanting one. Been keeping busy with riding and kids weather is finally decent enough snow is melting so dirt road is almost clear of ice snow now. Still issues with meds but that will be changing soon enough.Just have to push through it dailey some days are better than others. Having to go out 2 times a day to feed hay now as it is getting to muddy wet to put out big bales. Just end up with way to much waste putting out bales this time of year.

Not only that my hay supply is getting low only 6 big rounds left. road restrictions are on now so hay guy can't bring a load of hay. Should be ok, usually i have enough till june although i have fewer bales than last year at this time. Last week was tough our one dog became really sick thought we were going to lose him. It turned out he had lyme disease wasn't a clear yep it's lyme. Vet had to do a CBC that showed it was possibly lyme. So vet sent home a weeks worth of doxy said dog should improve greatly in 48 hours if we were dealing with lyme disease. Saw huge improvement in 24 hours so that was a huge relief,so got the rest of doxy to do 30 days of treatment. 358$ dollars worth of vet bill and medicine.

Today i'm really on a low meds are making it tough today more so than other days. Guess having a headache doesn't help took some pain meds so hopefully it helps soon. With 4 kids it's hard to not be busy and just push through foggy/ lightheaded very tired drug induced feelings. Tried going off the meds wasn't a good idea i got suicidal within 3 days being off meds can't go there not with kids who need their mom. My husband was quick to see things were going south, so made me take meds that night. I'm plugging away every day taking one day at a time.

I am on here off and on but don't always check this thread.
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The dog one on bed was when he was sick,other pic is when he started feeling much better.

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post #98 of 122 Old 03-24-2018, 02:28 PM
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I want to start by expressing my deepest, most sincere condolences. Losing not only one parent, but both so close together must be the most difficult experience to endure. I just want to put it out there, even though we are all miles away and some of us (right now) barely know each other, you are not alone. Throughout my life I've dealt with varying degrees of depression and anxiety, and having my friends (who mostly were far away, but only a phone call away), helped tremendously. I actually met some of my most dear friends that helped me through some difficult times on a forum, one that was designed around dogs; not much different than this one!

As for medication, I am on a maintenance dose of Zoloft, and whenever I have gone off or on it, or had my doses adjusted, I always felt icky for a few weeks. Mainly the first week it made my stomach feel bad, and then until things started to level out, I started to feel better. I can't be more than on a small dose, because it makes me extremely restless at night and I can't sleep.

If it's been more than a month, you may want to talk to your prescribing doctor about trying either a lower dose, or a different medication all together. Depending on the person, some people can have bad reactions to some medications. For instance, Wellbutrin does NOT agree with me, it gave me such bad anxiety attacks it was unbearable. Plus some other nasty unpleasant side effects that were not tolerable long term. Actually, it made the anxiety so bad, that I went to the ER one night because I was convinced that something was terribly wrong.

With all the different medications that are available, don't settle for one that makes you feel sedated, if it makes you feel that way, it's not the right one for you!

Don't hesitate to reach out if you ever need someone to talk to; you aren't alone.
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I actually fed my last round roll yesterday, but hay's plentiful this year.....Oh what a difference a year makes right? Last year we couldn't find a roll of hay within a hundred miles of here.....

Kind of like your situation.....hopefully, the bounties of life will become more apparent....as the days pass.

I heard a quote the other day.....don't remember from who, but they said, "one positive is better than a thousand negatives."

Keep your chin up girl.....you have way more than one positive.....just focus on the positives....think good thoughts. Live life for the moment....don't look back....and don't look forward right now......just enjoy the moment. One day at a time.

You'll be happy soon......I'm sure of it.
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post #100 of 122 Old 03-29-2018, 08:54 PM
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Hey Rambo.....what's up? You good?
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