Venting - I'm pretty crushed right now
I really need to vent tonight. Needing a hug pretty terribly.
2 months ago my boyfriend and I moved to his mom's farm.
We lived here a couple years ago for a while, but his mom started to resent us for not doing enough around the house. Which I fully admit, we really didn't. So because we were miserable living with her, we moved out to a small basement suite in the city. It was cramped and the landlord sucked and we were..well, miserable there too.
We lived there for about a year and as that went on, my depression worsened and I needed to get back out to the farm where I could have animals and fresh air again. So we asked his mom and she had been wanting us back, too. So we did.
Like I said it's been 2 months. Things were going wonderfully. I bought a horse, I have chickens and I was getting up at 7 instead of noon or later. It felt amazing. And then I twisted my knee, and I can't walk on it, and I can't do my chores like I was. I've been going out to help but it's not enough and my boyfriend's mom has grown to resent the both of us. She claims we do nothing. That there's stuff lying around. That I should be out there anyways feeding the animals which I understand, honestly I do but I literally can't walk. I can't get to the bathroom without a huge struggle and no one feels worse about it than I do. I've been trying to help out with chores as much as I can but I know I'm making my knee worse by doing it.
I want to mention that she has not spoken to us for almost 2 weeks now and FINALLY I brought it up because she sure as hell wasn't. And that's when she exploded on us and told us why she's angry. If she had just brought it up when it first started upsetting her it wouldn't have been a problem. We could have talked about it and figured things out. But now she hates us and told me that we're more than welcome to move back out. And that broke my heart.
I feel like my relationship is going to fall apart and everything else. I mean, I have to sell all my animals so that we can move out. I have to find a place that we can afford even though neither of us have jobs due to covid.
I don't really know why I'm posting this on here but I just needed to vent about this so badly.