Total Fear Day--I froze at the mounting block! - The Horse Forum
LinkBack Thread Tools
post #1 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 05:42 PM Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2019
Location: WIsconsin
Posts: 56
• Horses: 1
Total Fear Day--I froze at the mounting block!

I recently started leasing an Icelandic Horse, after a 15 year hiatus away from horses (other than a few guided trails). I only see my lease horse Draumsyn, once a week because I'm legally blind and I'm husband has to drive me and it's 45 minutes away. So I've ridden her (including the "test"ride) about 7 times now. My balance is getting better, my confidence has been improving in the saddle, my seat is excellent--so two the owner and one other riding instructor have told me. And yet, I had an epic fail on Thursday! I got her out, tacked her up and took her into the arena and got on the mounting block and my heart started pounding and I froze. Draumsyn is 13.1 hands! So I'm looking Down on her! I felt so ridiculous. After dithering for a couple minutes I finally made her nervous and she walked off. I repositioned her several times and every time couldn't swing my leg over--from fear. Finally had to get my husband out of the warm car and get him to hold her and stand there with me. I finally got on. Then I was a nervous Nellie for the first 15 minutes or so--I made her nervous and she jumped at hone point and sidestepped and I tensed up so hard I almost lost my seat. I finally said ENOUGH to myself and forced myself to relax and after a few minutes we found our rhythm and I had a much better ride--although not perfect. I am still afraid to canter (even though I used to do it bareback!). But I wanted to end on a good note--so screwed up my courage and took first one foot out of the stirrups for halfway around, put it back, took out the other foot and finally dropped both stirrups for a couple turns around the arena. So relieved to at least have overcome that hurdle--and on a day when I was just full of generic "fear". Sheesh! Anyone else experience this? I think menopause is wreaking havoc with my anxiety levels. I'm 48 and I think I'm almost through the change already. Here are me and Draumsyn celebrating after our ride!
Attached Images
File Type: jpg 74808333_2854511071248296_4216904190925996032_n.jpg (22.1 KB, 105 views)
File Type: jpg 77030003_403644553857598_1870597401463488512_n.jpg (20.0 KB, 106 views)
waresbear, boots, carshon and 5 others like this.
Animalia is offline  
post #2 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 06:03 PM
Join Date: Apr 2015
Location: Canada
Posts: 6,858
• Horses: 2
The important thing is that you pushed through it! That's fantastic!

Are you taking lessons? It seems like it would be good to have someone assisting you when this sort of thing happens, and it would also be really good to have eyes on the ground to help you correct little things so you can continue to improve. I'd also like to suggest a helmet to keep that head well protected!

I don't think I ever got so nervous I couldn't get on, but there were definitely times when my heart would race, especially when I rode my very nervous mare. Even now, riding my very steady appy gelding, my heart might accelerate a little sometimes, like today, when we rode by the barn and an icicle crashed down near us, and he decided to spook a little. The good thing is that his spooks are easy to ride - nothing like my mare's explosions. But I have a bit of PTSD from her bad spooks (she gave me a concussion - lucky I was wearing a helmet that day!) so even when I know I'm fine, sometimes my body still reacts. The only thing to do is to keep riding. Eventually it goes away.
Acadianartist is offline  
post #3 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 06:28 PM
Join Date: Jun 2019
Posts: 253
• Horses: 0
Way to go!!! You were obviously very in tune with yourself and the situation. I'd call that excellently assessed and handled. And great photos! Draumsyn is so cute - look at that white face and flaxen mane and tail!

Menopause doesn't have to be the only reason that you're feeling anxious. I'm not there yet, but I've had days where I psyche myself up and confidently think "I'm going to try this today! Yeah!" ...then I get out there and my body reacts with anxiety. I think it just takes practice to become mentally and physically zen in the saddle. This is especially true when presented with new experiences (like a new horse) or more speed or heights. You don't know what could happen, and so why not exercise caution? You can't invalidate your body's reaction, but you can at least tell yourself that it's not productive to feel that way. And nothing beats riding anxiety like being prepared. We might not be able to tell the future, but we can all know how to do a 1-rein stop and be prepared for anything. =)

No diet, no hoof. No hoof, no horse. No horse is not an option!
Feathers7 is offline  
post #4 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 06:35 PM
Green Broke
Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Hildreth, FL
Posts: 2,565
• Horses: 5
Riding blind is 100 times, . . . no, 1000 times more difficult than riding sighted. Those of you who have never ridden with blind riders have no idea how difficult it is to find your balance when you are blind.

To help my blind friend and understand her issues better, I used to ride blindfolded from time to time. My blind friend fussed constantly about the length of her stirrups. They had to be "just so." After riding blindfolded, I understood perfectly how important balanced and even stirrups were. Your balance is so precarious when you can't see. EVERYTHING is so precarious when you can't see.

@Animalia , you used to canter bareback when you were sighted. It's a whole 'nother thing to ride blind. I think you need to cut yourself some slack. What you are doing is so so difficult. Just the fact that you get on and ride is wonderful.

Sighted riders, if you want an adventure, take your horse into an arena, put a black cloth bag over your head, and ride for 20 minutes.
knightrider is offline  
post #5 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 06:52 PM
Join Date: May 2014
Posts: 1,203
• Horses: 0
Well done! You are much braver than me.

I was a nervous wreck for a long time. So what I would do is just walk my horse in hand if I was too scared to get on. Until I got bored. You canít be bored and scared at the same time. Until you can, that is :/ I took a lot of lessons but I told my instructors not to push me. It helps a lot to know that you can get off at any time. Iím not scared any more, but I avoid riding in very scary situations. High winds in a tent indoor is a no go situation for me. A pack of stray dogs saunters into the arena, I get off. You get the idea.

Donít let anyone tell you there is nothing to be scared of because there is. Take lessons, get your seat solid and the probability of getting hurt goes down. If the horse is misbehaving and you are struggling, find a different horse. If the wind is blowing and the horse is jumping all over the place, donít ride that day. We are to old to play tough girls and they donít make spare parts for us.
Horsef is offline  
post #6 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 08:04 PM
Join Date: Sep 2018
Location: CenTex
Posts: 1,467
• Horses: 0
FWIW I personally don't think you should be pushing yourself to canter, just because you used to be able to do it. I think a lot of older people who used to ride feel like they should just be able to get back on and do whatever they used to do, but it doesn't work that way.

Really good job, though.
ACinATX is online now  
post #7 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 10:26 PM
Join Date: Oct 2009
Location: Seattle, WA
Posts: 47,243
• Horses: 2
Well done! this should have left you feeling GOOD, not bad. You went forward, when every molecule said back away.

The nice thing about getting older is that we are gentler with ourselves, and our expectations. We allow ourselves to enjoy the little things, . . . and it's great!
boots and JoBlueQuarter like this.
tinyliny is online now  
post #8 of 37 Old 11-16-2019, 10:57 PM
Join Date: Dec 2017
Location: NW Oregon
Posts: 343
• Horses: 0
I think you are awesome! And very inspiring! My hubby is legally blind and I've thought about talking him into taking riding lessons on a good safe school horse. You've given me inspiration to get him thinking about it! I know you have the courage to overcome this setback. There's no reason on earth to feel bad about a scare, and every reason to just think about and savor that big win you had!

Carry on!!
dogpatch is offline  
post #9 of 37 Old 11-17-2019, 01:42 AM
Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: London, UK
Posts: 1,276
• Horses: 1
Well done! I have a huge mare and at the start she was very antsy at the mounting block. I used to have to mount in front of a crowd with ppl yelling at me to hurry up lol. It made things WORSE and I would get so anxious. I always had a fear of being dragged by a stirrup mounting... When I moved yards somewhere quiet it would take me 15mins to mount as I refused to get on while she was fidgeting. I wasn't ready to take that leap and eventually she learned to park herself and wait lol. At old yard I saw one woman at the mounting block for half an hour who eventually gave up, after refusing help. It seems so silly but its not really. We're so vulnerable when we lift our leg over and it's even worse when we gotta do it on our own. Honestly some of the most nerve wrecking rides were when I was alone for the first few times. The first arena ride. The first solo hack. The first solo trot and canter... You're not alone. It will pass and soon become second nature ;)
Kalraii is offline  
post #10 of 37 Old 11-17-2019, 06:22 AM
Join Date: Aug 2019
Location: Europe
Posts: 259
• Horses: 0
@Animalia Hi, I understand your problem... I think the body sometimes instinctively remembers how certain situations could be dangerous for you even if you are in a totally different situation. It works the same with horses. They once had something really bad happen and their instincts and survival gut tell them to tense up/be scared every time in a similar situation. (which is kinda normal, you would want to survive above all) You are probably experiencing the same. After all humans are also animals. I think what the other riders said is true: you are very brave and if you try to get past your fear every time and move a little bit forward in your bravery every time, then you can retrain your brain. What also helps are positive visualizations and a good bond with your horse. I ride a non-beginners horse (and I am a beginner, so you can imagine...) and he used to pull all kinds of tricks on me, but now I have gotten to know him and I truly trust him. I know he will never intentionally ditch me so that helps me relax. :)

And also sometimes you just have a bad day... That's only human. Try to build your trust and self esteem by feeling safe (maybe you can add a neck rope or something to balance yourself? Or maybe grab the pommel to feel the movement of the horse...) Or maybe you can even train the horse to make a certain sound when he is gonna do a different gait?? Or you can add some sort of thing to the tack that gives you some tactic feedback??) You could also wear a body protector so you are more protected in case of a fall. Personally I do wear one always (I seem to be the only adult that does this.) The horse I ride likes to unzip it though, haha. ;)
knightrider and JoBlueQuarter like this.

The bravest are surely those who have the clearest vision of what is before them, glory and danger alike, and yet notwithstanding go out and meet it. (-Thucydides)
Jolien is offline  

Quick Reply

Register Now

In order to be able to post messages on the The Horse Forum forums, you must first register.

Already have a Horse Forum account?
Members are allowed only one account per person at the Horse Forum, so if you've made an account here in the past you'll need to continue using that account. Please do not create a new account or you may lose access to the Horse Forum. If you need help recovering your existing account, please Contact Us. We'll be glad to help!

New to the Horse Forum?
Please choose a username you will be satisfied with using for the duration of your membership at the Horse Forum. We do not change members' usernames upon request because that would make it difficult for everyone to keep track of who is who on the forum. For that reason, please do not incorporate your horse's name into your username so that you are not stuck with a username related to a horse you may no longer have some day, or use any other username you may no longer identify with or care for in the future.

User Name:
Please enter a password for your user account. Note that passwords are case-sensitive.


Confirm Password:
Email Address
Please enter a valid email address for yourself.

Email Address:


Thread Tools
Show Printable Version Show Printable Version
Email this Page Email this Page

Posting Rules  
You may post new threads
You may post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are On

For the best viewing experience please update your browser to Google Chrome