, would love to meet you and hear you tell your stories. You crack me up!
I have been avoiding you all. But on
's thread, both she and
asked me about the 'trail' ride, which I am pasting here. Crappy writing. Sorry.
Did I miss this interesting story? Did you tell it somewhere else? Can we hear about your horrendous trail ride?
, ugh. It is all my fault, really. Nothing exceptionally bad happened: a 40-min walk around a couple of fields on an old lesson horse. DH made the awesome effort of making the appt. and actually getting on a horse (a PRE). He was relaxed & chatty and would definitely do it again, so everything was great in that sense.
But, I am the problem. I guess I have too many unrealistic expectations, and sometimes it is still hard for me to come to terms with the fact that I no longer have a horse. So, yes, I have to put up with the horses that I am given (I was given a crop to get the poor dear to walk). Sad circumstances for the horse, I got depressed, had to constantly put leg on and wound up screwing up my back. I could not drive afterwards and slept with a heating pad.
So, now I am more aware of my brokenness, and now I wonder: why bother? I guess I am just destined to ride kids' lesson ponies, which is the only way I have been able to ride without pain. Perhaps I have just been fooling myself for the past 18 months.
As a result, I skipped class on Tuesday. Today's class will be crap because of my mental state, but I have to get through it. I am thinking about walking away from it all, though.