This thread makes me sad. Especially when I think of everything I have to do to hold onto Rascal and the dogs. I work extra hard because I made a commitment to take care of them when I adopted/purchased/agreed to accept them.
I take a lot of crap from the ex because they have to live with him right now. I pay extra for their care so it's not like I don't support them. I am here when I have gas money to get here. If not, I have to go a couple weeks without seeing them, so I can afford to feed them.
My personal internet is gone, (cell is for work and at $50 a month it is cheaper than a land line) Extra vehicle is sold, bank account is almost dry but the emergency fund is still in savings, my personal jewelry/luxuries are all sold for a fraction of what they were worth, and I spend 4 to 5 hours a week researching to go grocery shopping. I have to get the most of every dollar I make right now.
I am in the process of bettering my position at work, but during training I make peanuts. Is all this really worth it??? YES. Am I insane not to give away, euthanize, or adopt out all my animals??? NO, I am not. I made a commitment to take care of them. I love them, and will do what is best for them before I do for myself. My Son lives on his own now, but he still knows if he needs, Mom will find a way. It's how I was raised.
The bills don't stop coming because I am living in a garage efficiency apartment 45 minutes away. The needs physical and psychological don't stop either. Mine, nor theirs. I'd do a lot to keep them safe, healthy, and happy. I am doing a lot. Pinching pennies is an understatement! I make mine scream for their mother! And I tell ya this, if I qualified for anything, I'd file. Not because I am entitled or want to "ride the money pony" but to help keep my pony and dogs safe and healthy while I dig my way back out of a hole I didn't see coming. It wasn't their mistake, it was mine. I don't want them paying for it.
Does this make me a bad person. I don't think so. Does this make me one of those stupid people living beyond their means? Yes, it does. I can't afford them, yet I struggle every day to provide for them. They didn't ask to become my pets. I chose!! And I choose everyday to keep struggling to do what I feel is best for them. Do I like working 60 hours a week plus side jobs? No, not really. But it's my day off :) and I had a free hour. Rascal got groomed, dogs got bathed. We all went for a long walk. And I am going to shower so I can go work an odd job. (Rascal needs to see the farrier. He is 2 weeks overdue. )
Then on my day off tomorrow I am going to work 12 hours on another side job (night time), then to take care of my Mom for the day, and listen to how insane I am to work like a dog to keep the dogs and Rascal. Yeah, it's tough, BUT I made a commitment!!!
Did I mention 4 am is early everyday LOL I used to be on the forum pretty much every day. Now lol, not so much.
I miss you Rascal. Every day, all day.
Last edited by Rascaholic; 03-07-2013 at 09:44 AM.
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