I wish for you, my friend, two horses.
Two horses, and the ability to support them both.
I would truly hate to see you send Ronan on, because I think he's fabulous. But I'm sure you're tired of hearing that, and thinking that, because it doesn't address the big question.
I have two horses - one is the horse that everyone thinks I should have and that I don't understand why I don't ride more often or just sell the other and keep him.
The other one is the one I really enjoy.
Please don't get me wrong, I don't want to sell the first one. He's rock solid reliable, easy and comfortable. A horse anyone would want in their barn. If my knees are hurting, he's my first choice. But if he were my one and only, I would be SO BORED.
So I have the other one, who's always a challenge, always fun, who I
"get" and who "gets" me. And is also a bit of a pistol. But I feel like I'm really riding when I ride him. When I ride the other one, I feel like a passenger. Sometimes a skilled passenger, but, yeah, a passenger.
When I ride horse #1, I come home content. When I ride horse #2, I come home exhilarated.
I am very lucky that I have two. Doesn't make any sense for me to maintain two, but it works for me.