have you ever suddenly been scared to ride ?
Recently I witnessed a friend get bucked of and break arm bone really badly, and last time I rode my horse was sore and bronced instead of cantering most of the time like massive broncs like a rodeo horse, like my friends horse did.
And for the first time in my life I actually don't want to ride any more, but I know I do, my horse is pretty relaxed and spooks once in a blue moon.
And people at my new agistment say how good I train my horse, and that my horse is a good match with me. And that she was a good horse to buy for me.
Mostly I'll sit through everything, I'm never scared I've dealt with things like this before, I will actually force myself to be even more relaxed and just laugh it of but I'm scared of falling of ,and the whole 4-5 months I have been on my project I have never fallen of.
I wasn't even scared when I rode this green pony, that had not been ridden in a field before and went spastic, but than I wasn't told he would do anything bad.
Its like I never noticed how bad you could injure yourself until now, but I've always heard of those terrible stories when people die ect.
This is also embarrassing to say, and admit. I spend hours in my mind just imagining what might happen next time I ride or how I could fall. But I really don't know is it worth riding if you could die, when I seriously think about its not.
I'm thinking for my birthday I could go on a trail ride, or an agistee said I was capable to ride one of her ottb`s.