I guess I just need to tell someone my worries on my horse...
My first horse I ever had was Amber. We did literally everything together. I would bring her out of her pasture to walk down the driveway with me every morning. We owned her for seven years - just a year after I was born. I have gone through to lots of photos and the best memories I can remember, and every one was with her. SHe always protected me from the other horses and when we were out of her pasture. She never let me fall and always did everything I asked.
When I was about eight, my dad got a job in Montana. We moved up there, but had to leave Amber behind because my parents said she wouldn't last one winter up there. We moved in 2007. So the horse I spent my entire life with was being left behind. Amber was about 21 years old when we left her. That is how old my Golley boy is currently. This year she is turning 28. My username is in memory for her - but she hasn't passed on yet, thank goodness.
When my sister and my mom went out to ride Brisco and Golley for the first time since we moved there, I thought about Amber and how my true love wouldn't be out there. I cried for hours. It was hard for a little 9 year old, especially when you had known her all your life, and one day she wouldn't be there for me. One hard thing for me was when my dad said, "Grow up, you'll never see her again and she won't ever be out there anymore." Well, he didn't like horses - but did not give him nay reason to put me down even more.
We left her with one of our friends who also owned horses. Let's just call her L. So about every 3 to 4 months I contact her through Facebook. Every time I contacted her, she would reply. Except from December to present. I contacted her again in January because i was worried. L asked me for my number and said nothing else. Now, that kind of worried me. Because usually she replies with good things about Amber, but now she wants my number??
Well, now I am just very worried, because she still hasn't called or replied with any info on Amber at all. So I'll ask her again on my birthday - the end of this month.
But I mean, should I really be this worried about it? Should I really get over it? That would be so hard for me. Everyday i think about her, then wonder why L hasn't replied back yet.
Amber changed my life, and I don't think I could ever forget her.
But am I freaking out too much? Should i just wait another month to ask about her? Should i give up?
I am jsut lost and worried right now. I just neede dot tell someone about this because it is so hard to talk about face to face. Last time I tried I just ended up crying. I don't talk about it at home either because my dad might say something mean again, yet he has NO idea how I feel.
Well, thanks fr reading anyways - just needed to tell someone my story I guess, because I haven't done that yet. :/
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