Oh blush, I am so so sorry. There is nothing anyone can say to ease your pain or make it better but know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Big hugs.
In time's own space,
There must be some sweet pastured place....
Where creeks sing on and tall trees grow,
Some paradise where horses go.
For by the love that guides my pen,
I know great horses live again.
Rest In Peace Robbie.
Life is like a camera. Focus on what's important, Capture the good times, Develop from the negatives and if things don't work out, Take another shot.