The title says it all, haha. Ever since I left my first eventing barn last summer, I just can't find a horse or trainer that works 110% for me. -rant-
I went out to the "country" for a few months, but my best friend/trainer (from previous barn) had difficulties with her personal life and couldn't come anymore. Lennon was a great pony, but I really did need something bigger, and a bit calmer if I wanted to get better. He had such try in him, he loved to work. He was half an hour away, so it became a drag only being able to go twice a week.
I began lessons with my work barn, and there was a noticeable difference in how I rode, really using my seat more, but I didn't like the horses, the trainer was very direct -to be nice- and they taught hunters. I needed dressage.
I found an (supposedly) amazing 15 year old fourth level dressage horse. He's actually 18, and though he did do "quite a bit of dressage long ago" because he was used in draw reins he breaks at the vertebrae. It's not fixable because he was ridden wrong for so long. I love Chevas, I really do. He does have those higher movements in him, but he can't move up too far because he's older and trained wrong. I really wouldn't mind staying with him through the summer just to show intro, but the trainer and I don't click. She literally hasn't taught me a thing in 3 months, and I feel like I'm wasting $300 a month for nothing.
I love the horses I worked with; Lennon was a big confidence builder and Chevas is just such a goofball, but I miss my heart horse, Suzie. I really miss my mare-bear. And I want to stay with a horse for 1-2 years so that maybe I'll feel like I did with Suzie, but I just don't think I can stay with Chevas for much longer, but I don't want to leave him because no one will ride or love on him.
There's one barn (Brittany Whyatt eventing if anyone has heard of it) that I email (too scared to call) that sounds like it's what I need, I'm just tired of this. I wish last summer could have stayed