Vent- Horses vs School
Decided to write my first ever vent to get my mind off of school for a little while.
Here we go. My family has a total of 4 horses, 2 of which are mine. One is green, one is untrained, another has a little bit of show experience and one has a lot of show experience. All of them need work, and they are by far the best stress relieves. I love being able to just groom them, or just walk them around the field. Riding is a plus during school. I used to be able to ride one of them every day after school.. Until school got hard.
This year I decided to start making myself look good for colleges, as I am a junior. I'm in 2 AP classes, 2 honors and 2 regular. It's only the first month of school and I feel like dropping all the hard classes. I get zero time with the most important things in my life now. All I have time for is to feed, water, pick up poop and say bye now, and it hurts. Over summer I make so much progress with them and then throw it all away when school starts.
I'm sitting here balling my eyes out thinking about how much I neglect spending time with them, when I know they don't really care as long as they get fed, but I feel so guilty. I'm constantly stressed, and not being able to ride isn't helping. One day I'm going to just crawl underneath my bed and quit going to school. I know school is important and all, but it doesn't feel like it anymore. Heck, I got my first F on a test..or first 5 F's...
Ugh. Anyone have any ideas on how to juggle school and horses?