I can sense your frustration in the post. He's such a gorgeous horse, it would be sad to see you guys go your seperate ways. Unfortunately thats part of owning a green broke horse. Its a lot of work before they get enough miles on.
Do you have the funds to look into having get some training with a trainer? how about offering a free lease or partial lease and have someone else with more experience put on miles for you?
He's been in professional training for a year. The actual training hours equal about five months, as he was injured twice and ill twice.
He's doing so well except for the initial mounting. He tenses and his back humps up and if you don't do the right thing, he will buck. The right thing is either sitting quietly and waiting for him to relax (if he's simply tense) or bending him and making him work (if he's starting to actually move out and starting to buck).
But then he settles in and really shines. He's a big, beautiful mover. He loves to work. He really looks to his rider for guidance and trusts their direction. He's flashy and showy. All in all, he's a loving, sweet horse.
Deep down I know I can handle that but I have this ridiculous mental block of fear that is almost paralyzing in intensity.
In fact, he did give a small buck while I was mounted and trying to find my stirrup and it was really no big deal. I actually didn't realize he'd given a small buck/hop until my trainer told me. I just sat there and rode it out.
Yesterday he was worse than usual. He usually stands quietly for mounting but this time he started his antics before my trainer even got on. She made him work from the ground until he decided to stand for mounting. He was tense for longer than usual. I had a small mental breakdown and couldn't make myself get on when it was my turn. I feel like such a failure.
My trainer then let me ride one of the school horses I take lessons on and it made me think about just getting something nice and quiet (and smaller!).
It's a stretch to keep him in full time training along with paying board. What the plan is right now is to have an apprentice trainer continue to put miles on him, which will be easier on my budget.
The apprentice trainer rode him for the first time today and did well. Again, he was tense at the start but actually it was less than the past few rides. It was the barn's play date with gymkhana games. The apprentice trainer rode him in a few of the games (walk/trot) and he did well. He spooked a few times but his spooks are no big deal to me. He usually just stops and plants and faces what's scary.
There was a long break between the keyhole race and the bobbing for apples. She had dismounted and when she went to get on, he was prancing and tense and his back got super humpy. My main trainer was there and made him bend and work from the ground. The apprentice trainer then got on and he softened quicker than I've ever seen him. All in all, a great day and it's made me second guess myself yet again.
The plan at the moment is to keep him in training (with the apprentice trainer doing most of the rides), but list him for sale at a higher price. He is certainly worth a lot but it would have to be the perfect buyer because he does have that one issue to work through, and that one issue is a dealbreaker for many. If he doesn't sell his training will continue and we'll see if he eventually gets over the tension upon mounting.