"You've never ridden a broke horse" [boss rant]
I swear to god, my job becomes more unbearable every day.
Look, I can stand the homophobic rants. I can stand the lack of sense of humor. I can stand the heat and the dirt and the old fashioned cowboy methods that I wouldn't use on my old horses.
But honestly? I'm already getting on my last leg.
I literally get up every morning and dread going to the barn here, because I never know if it's gonna be good or bad. I don't know if my boss is gonna be mad at me again or happy with me. And it just feels like I'm failing his "standards".
He keeps making comments like, "Now I know you've never ridden real nice broke horses..." and "I know you've never learned anything". Really, really frustrating.
I know he doesn't get along with my trainer, who i miss so dearly, but that's no reason to tell me I don't know a damned thing. An admittedly, I could show it better, I'm just so scared he's gonna jump down my throat if I take the initiative and do what I know because I know he dislikes the way I've learned up to this point. Yet here I am, still working for him.
For the record, I have ridden nice broke horses. MY mare is a NICE, BROKE horse. She's up in the bridle, does everything, shows well, kid safe, all the buttons and body parts are loosened up on her and she's effortless. He put me on one of his finished horses so I could "feel" the way the colts need to get, and I swear to god it was like I was sitting on my own horse. They were just the same, training level wise. Only difference was that horse stops a little bit harder...um, duh. Selena is never going to be a dynamic stopper. But she sure as hell will put her butt in the ground should I ask.
I'm just really frustrated. One minute he's great, the next minute he makes it hell. He asked me today, "Can you do this? Train these colts?" and I told him yes I could. Later on, he made a comment that I didn't know how to ride a colt....I've ridden almost nothing but solid colts for the past two years, with great results, it's just that I'm too damned scared of ****ing him off that I freeze up instead of reacting and fixing problems.
I told him straight out that I would do whatever he wanted with his horses, but my main focus is barrel racing. Ever since then, he's treated me like a speed demon with no horsemanship skills. He's done nothing but talk bad about barrel racing and talks about how it "ruins a rider" or "ruins the horse." I tell him repetitively that's not true, it's just a stereotype, but does he listen to me? Of course not...I'm just a young girl with no riding ability whatsoever.
I know it's partially me and my fear, but he just makes me so uncomfortable and stressed out...
end of rant :/
Pssh.I didn't pick up the wrong lead
It's called a counter canter...
...A very advanced maneuver.