Originally Posted by KylieandReily1 View Post
It only takes me a couple of hours to do all of my tasks now, at first it took me a lot longer but Iím much faster now, my mistakes are more with my own horse than my job. Itís more like Iíll do things the way I was taught and theyíre wrong so itís like Iím starting from square one almost which I feel like is frustrating for both my trainer and I, I thought I was a decent rider and on my way to becoming a decent horsewoman, but Iím just really unsure now because it seems everything I have been taught is wrong so it takes a little longer for me to adjust to the new methods. My trainer isnít mean at all, she is great, she really is, I just feel more like a burden than an asset to her and I just want to be useful and easy to teach. It also doesnít help that I am shy and a little awkward almost I feel. I have never owned a green horse, I have ridden them with past trainers, but like I said, not correctly. Iím just a bit discouraged and disappointed in myself I think.
You came from a lesson program riding already trained horses. You're young and don't have experience. To think you'll be able to retrain a horse and do everything well your first time around the block is completely unobtainable. You don't have the knowledge, experience, or skills necessary. You don't seem open to learning, because instead of putting your head down and working through the issues presented, you internalize them.
A trainer correcting you on what you're doing incorrectly is how training works
. Just because it's your own horse doesn't change that or that something you're doing is incorrect. You cannot ride a fresh off the track horse like you would a school pony.
I think you need to look at the top riders and trainers in any sport and realize they're all well over 40. This isn't a sport where decent or good happens quickly. You have to earn your stripes through years and years of work and training.
If you're having issues adjusting to new methods, work through it yourself.
Any job in any field you'll have this time period of adjustment, and you'll get criticism for doing something incorrectly and you have to be able to nod, say okay, and change the problem.
All of this has nothing to do with horses, and everything to do with becoming an adult. If you have a job, you have to be adaptable, flexible, and ready to work and fix mistakes.