I need help with motivation.
Okay so I’m a 16 year old and I’ve been riding for about 5 or 6 years now, the last 3 or so I have been competitively jumping at hunter shows and dressage shows, mostly schooling ones though. The horse I showed, Rocky, was my moms and he is the best, he’s just a been there done that kinda guy and not much phases him. I love jumping him and still take lessons and ride him and stuff. However, about 2 summers ago, we moved to our own farm and got a second horse so that I could do higher level shows. I knew he had to be trained more, but I didn’t really realize how much work it would be. He is an OTTB and he usually has a sweet personality, but can be super naughty when we’re doing ringwork. His name is Pi. I want to jump and show him eventually but honestly right now that seems impossible, he is so hard to ride under saddle and he has a mean rear, and recently started a new bolting thing. Don’t get me wrong, I love him a lot and he isn’t always so bad, for a while there he wa a jumping and working regularly. He is also a great trail horse so we hack often, but it’s just not what I wanted to do with him.
Our ring is an outdoor grass ring and it is misshapen so it’s hard to ride in to begin with, because I don’t even know where the sides of the ring are, so how would he?
Basically, I’ve been feeling really down about how we haven’t made much progress and that’s made me be even worse about riding regularly. I’ve always been kinda like that, it’s hard for me to ride everyday, but it’s gotten worse. I just don’t know what to do and how to make Pi become more enjoyable to ride. I’ve been spending some time recently at a Hunter stable across the road where I love the coach and I take lessons on Rocky and some of her horses and I exercise some of her horses, and it’s really hard because they are all so great and my coach even offered for me to show some of them when shows are back on (probably next summer lol) and they are all such great rides, and then I get home and think “oh now I have to ride Pi” as if it’s a chore. I really was looking forward when we first got him because he was so sweet and he has so much potential, and I thought getting him trained in jumping would be so rewarding because I never liked to idea of just getting on a push-button pony and winning a million ribbons just because the horse had already done it a thousand times.
Sorry for the rambling paragraphs. Basically I need help with how to train Pi and what to do with him and now I can motivate myself to ride. Thanks in advance!