You are way too afraid of making a mistake.
Yes I am but Im just so set and keen on making sure i stay as consistent as possible when giving her direction. Cause we all know horses will be the same every single time you work with them, its how their brains are wired and how they think. Its up to me to be consistent every single time.
Your horse won't lead correctly and you are concerned about your horse being sensitive and trying to bite you and rearing and bucking in response to your attempt at correction.
She actually pretty good from what I was told. Its just that she will get distracted by things around us and try to get ahead of me. She needs to remember that im still by her side.
You have asked whether the problem is you aren't asking firmly enough or whether the horse doesn't understand your cues. My best guess without actually watching you with your horse is that for you they're the same thing.
And thats why im so commited about me giving the correct ques and once I find ones that work with her, me being consistent, it being the same every single time. Which Im confident i am giving the right ques.
You are so concerned about doing it right that you aren't being clear, and you are so worried about not being clear that you are afraid to correct because maybe it's your own fault. I'm guessing you are nagging your horse and your horse is sick of it.
Even though i still have room for improvement in terms of me being firm, I have gotten noticably more assertive over time.
I believe changing my tone of voice from the baby voice to my normal voice should help.
I'm guessing it's not very close. I'm guessing you need to forget about your horse's sensitivity and start exaggerating your cues by a factor of five. Get confident, get loud, and get firm. The only way this horse will ever love you is when it recognizes you as its leader.
In other words I still need to take my assertiveness to another level.