So I've been trying for the past couple of years to get my foot in the horsey door, so to speak. At first, it was difficult because I didn't have a job. But I was talking with a local trainer about a sort of working student arrangement and things were looking good, then she just... vanished. Never called me back, her website went offline... Needless to say, that was disappointing. But I didn't give up.
I started doing transcription work, making some money here and there and saving my pennies. Then I finally found a "real" job (not to imply that transcription isn't a real job; I just mean a job outside the house with a set schedule and all). It's great! I'm making halfway decent money! One of my very first thoughts was "I can afford lessons now!"
The problem now
is where and when. I've found a few prospects I'd like to check out, but it's all but impossible to find the time because not only do I have to have the day (or at least, certain hours of the day) off, but my GF does too. Partly because we want to take lessons together, but also because I can't drive.
Anyway, long story short, I'm just feeling really down and discouraged because I recently realized just how long I've been trying to get things to work, and in all this time I haven't even managed to get near
a horse. There always seems to be something standing in the way.
I've been reading and trying to learn everything I can, but I just feel like there's this empty spot in my life and in my heart (and yes, that sounds a bit dramatic, but it's true).
I know no one can solve this problem for me and maybe I just need to be patient, try harder, whatever. Mostly, I just needed to vent. But if anyone does have any advice or encouragement or ideas, they would be very much appreciated.
Thanks for letting me get this out. <3