Help, please - I'm arena sour
I started taking lessons two years ago. I am not very talented but I love riding. (I'm 40, if that makes a difference). I have three lessons a week at two different barns.
Lately I come out of lessons very irritable. There is only one mare that I enjoy riding, OTTB who is very forward and soft and, most importantly, sane. Obviously, she is very popular and I get to ride her maybe once a month and those lessons are everything I could hope for and more. I can jump with her, collect her, do some low level dressage (shoulder in, leg yield- that sort of thing) even though neither me nor the mare had the training - it's just easy with her. She makes me glow :)
All of the other riding school horses are the usual type, sluggish, unresponsive to the leg, have an assortment of vices (kicking out at the crop and other horses, reversing into other horses to kick them, napping, jumping into canter with a big buck whenever another horse passes ...). I used to enjoy my lessons regardless but for the last couple of months they just drive me up the wall - I can and do handle their antics but I just don't want to any more. It's making me not enjoy riding.
What do I do? Do I take a break? Do I buy a horse? - I can easily afford it. (No such thing as sharing around here).
One of my instructors says that I should know how to get the best out of any horse, but at this rate I'm not going to be riding at all so it's a moot point.