Hello everyone. I am not new to horses, I am just going to consider myself new to riding...
I own two horses, one a blind rescue, and the other a trail horse (who really just prefers to follow people, and is lazy as can be unless following another person or horse).
However, I have not ridden in a very long time. One of the last times I rode I was in the process of looking for a new horse to buy, and upon testing out what appeared to be a very promising beautiful paint gelding, he decided to throw me, giving me the worst fall I have ever had. I didn't end up buying that horse, as he threw me the minute I mounted. He ended up being sold to a trainer because the owner at the time then realized he had some behavior issues, if only she realized BEFORE I got on him.
Anyway, I rode my horse (the lazy one) only two more times after being thrown. I found myself terrified in the saddle, even though I know deep down I can trust that my horse will not throw me.. she never has, she's never even tried. It has been almost 2, maybe 3 years now since I've ridden... I really want to start riding again, but I feel like I have to start from scratch... I'm scared to even trot, so I want to at least get back on at a walk. I want to be back where I was, and I want to be further. I'm trying not to let my fears rule me because I absolutely love riding.
My goal is to be back to where I was in about a year, and to even learn new things. I have never ridden English before, and I want to learn. I'm also thinking maybe I should go back to lessons, but I get embarrassed about lessons considering I have no confidence, and I feel like I now have no skill.
Sorry this was super long, I just wanted to share where I am at with horses at this point in time. I have been trying to get myself excited about riding again so that I'll actually take the plunge and get back into what I love. If anyone has any stories about regaining their confidence after a fall, I'd love to hear them, maybe it'll inspire me!