I love reading these. Congrats and keep on riding!
I also suffer with anxiety which interferes with my riding but the more you ride the less you will worry and feel anxious. For me I still get worked up over doing new things with my horses but then calm down after a bit. I've learned that's just who I am as a person and it's not going to really ever change.
This past weekend I hauled one of my horses to a trail ride.. I haven't been out on a trail in about 4 years and same with my horse. I did get a little worked up but nothing horrible and was able to calm down on my own quickly.
I tell myself it's okay to get nervous but I must know how calm myself and relax and then all will be good.
Hero Act - 2002 Thoroughbred Gelding / Gunner - Quarter Horse Gelding / John Deere - Mini/companion Gelding